startin over so fresh fresh

I'm not sure how well I'll do managing two blogs, but I feel it necessary because I want to keep writing, building from my days in high school language and literature classes. And so here I am.

Sometimes I feel that I'm slowly growing stupid at Columbia.
Not to knock it or say that I hate it, but just to say that I came from a very diligent school ethic in high school. I did lots of intense, difficult assignments daily, and turned in everything required with my best efforts. And now I've become lethargic; I am extremely lazy when it comes to doing homework. I've become accustomed to having little or no homework half of the time, so when I do have some, I put it off until I really need to get down to it. I'll push assignments to the side for a good while, but in the back of my mind, I have a sharp awareness of how urgently I need to attend to things and so I am able to get an idea of how much time an assignment will take me. I've been working like this since I've started college two years ago and it has not necessarily had bad effects - I've still excelled every semester. It doesn't always work, though - this I know. Ask me how it was to try and complete a ten-page final screenplay in the computer lab at 12:40pm when the class started at 12:30.
In the end, most of the time, I somehow pull it off. And it might not be fair, but I do. I've lamented about this before: moving through school like this. Lucky mf, yes, and as we all know, change is hard.

That's all I've got.